for I have sinned...

Alas, the Sim with so much 'sim' (heart) has sinned. When the anger simmers, all is well. We recover with time. But today, I plead guilty to something else.

I have traded my old loves for new ones. Indeed, my fear of commitment is too real. I've been spending less and less time with my hubby ever since my new love came along. Sorry, lao gong, you bring music to my ears, but somehow we don't sing the same tune perfect despite the number of times we've been through. So right now, I've decided to have an affair with the one that gives me the adrenaline rush, the pair so bright and cheery, I fell too many times for...
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Muahahaha. So cool for what? After Sat's 'very-early-in-the-morning-and-I-can't-believe-I-woke-up-on-time' skating session at ECP with KK and tang2, I was possessed. I crave for that breeze blowing in my face, the adrenaline to stay constantly alert, the desire to master special moves, the falling and recovering from the bumps and ditches. Yellow is for courage, yellow is for hope, yellow is for joy. Yellow is for Livestrong. =) Thanks tang2. I wanna learn something new out of my stagnant netball 'pasttime'... I have and I still am.

Aside from the skating affair, splurging is my number 2 sin.. Even though I'm about as fat as a hippopotamus now, I've been buying clothes that I can only hope to fit into the few months down the road. No thanks to the illusion created that everything is cheap from the Great Singapore Sale season.. and I bought a Fossil watch that wasn't exactly on discount... hmmmm...

All this, when I'm earning only a measly $540 a month with the P.A job. The job where I have to lie more than George Bush does, through gritted teeth and knotted tongue. Luckily, things have been picking up since the adverts. Busy days they are, but I may finally earn my well-deserved commission. Bo pi let my bro-in-law close many deals. His family needs to eat and be taken care of... My sister has lost so much weight and Dovey is still very young. More importantly, I can't survive on winning mahjong money alone. True, I can sell Heroes VCD at $5 each. (After all, I'm still waiting for 'whatever' to finish burning so that I can watch on my DVD player in the comfort of my own bed before I sleep.) But look at the grueling number of hours my computer has to work through the nights for them, the number of msn messages I've ignored every morning I wake up to, and O... all those electricity bills... (but I don't pay for those, so that's ok.) Still, life is tough. I need money to buy my veniezia ice cream.. And what if I lose my mahjong games? Like how I lost that bet about the French Open today. What then? How am I going to pay for my cab fares?

Ok. Burn's done. And I'm officially dumping 'Lost' for 'Heroes'. Sorry Sawyer. I'm sad to have you leave me, and your lousy producers drag you down that 'forever-gonna-stay-mysterious' island. Allow my heroes put me to sleep tonight. For I need courage to work the next day.

P/S: Please pray for this sim's sin to be purged of unforgiving sorrow, and for my Ouxiang's win to triumph over Serena tomorrow.

Justine Henin
6pm SCV ch22. French Open. woohoo~

P/P/S: And I'm still jealous Jan share the same birthday as her on the 1st of June. But Happy Belated Birthday to you anyway. I was busy with work that day/night. I'm really sorry (and sad that) I missed (out on)the celebration.

K. My heroes are waiting for me. Ciaoz.