Ends & Beginnings.

Sorry moZ, I promised to update at the start of the year along with resolutions and what not. But.. look how long it's been. Need to include that in the resolutions as well. Allow me to defend myself. I spent 2hrs typing in blogger when darn internet explorer crashed. I felt utterly defeated by technology, I refused to blog again. On top of that, I'd been pretty busy. School attachment took up most of my days. Trainings took up most of my nights. Catching up with friends and school shit took up most of the time left. So here I am, finally. after all the portfolio and projects...

Yes, my attachment has ended. Met many interesting people but I suppose I didn't stay long enough to know them properly. Parting is always such sweet sorrow. No.. I don't like to say goodbyes. Never been good at it. How do you know when to not turn back and steal a last glance? How do you know when to break that eye contact? Hmmm... I don't like to feel like a socialite. Been having this problem the past few months especially in the past year 2006.. - birthday bash, Christmas and new year gatherings, etc., letting the word 'love' linger around my lips once too often. So overused is the word that I feel it's losing its value. Cards and messages signing off with love and love and love.. So when do I really meant what I said?....

Few weeks ago, I was running low on fuel and self esteem when too much shit happened altogether. But thankfully, they were all resolved in time. Netball was, for a while, not quite the familiar game I play anymore. But I now foresee that NSL will change that. Almost lost my footing some time ago before the holidays salvaged me, it made me resented the urban life and the lack of time. Maybe it was the train ride to work every morning in the underground, or maybe it was the lack of sleep. I felt like a rat in a tunnel that never got to see daylight. Didn't really help that the office doesn't have proper windows. So God knows what the weather and time it is out there. Luckily I had fun colleagues with the capability to chase away the blues, and alas, the comfort of food. Muahahah. (but of course, the music too.) Despite that, I still needed my dose of good conversations with close friends. Life is much too fragile to be wasting time away. (so tell me again, what the hell am I still doing in school?)

Gee. Boy aren't I glad I'm done with DMD! The 5 friggin' years of juggling act made me feel like a clown... I do hope those dreadful days are over. NYP, just give me that bloody piece of paper, will ya?!

I couldn't be grateful enough to all those who have helped me up along the way when all I did was kept tripping over the same stone. Do join me in my 'Diploma Cert. Burning' session when I have received that wretched paper in my hands. Mwahahaha! Serious, if I pass all my modules successfully... this calls for a celebration, dear friends.

The future looks bright. Where shall I go from now? =)



P/S: My 2nd sis, Elaine, got married. =) So, so happy, happy, happy for her.


Now, This is what I call 'love'.